How? How can this be? I feel like I have shattered into a million pieces. My beautiful, talented, best friend in the whole wide world (cousins by birth, friends by choice) is gone. I just keep saying “I can’t." I can’t breathe sometimes. I can’t wrap my head around where I am, where she is not. I can't believe this is happening. I can’t do THIS.
This is smothering me, the weight of it. I want to run; literally and figuratively, but there is nowhere to go to get away from “here”. It is raw, this grief. There are words are inside me, struggling to form, because I need a way to name it, to describe it, to give how I feel a voice so that I can let it out. Right now the words are just screams inside me, tearing at what is left.
I love you, my friend. Peace.