The good... I am going to be okay. I have great kids, a great family, and great friends. While the future is a little uncertain right now, I AM going to be fine. While the future isn't what I envisioned, I am going to make the best of it. Moving forward, accomplishing goals, and doing what's best for me and my kids are things on the bucket list for 2017.
The bad... My husband and I have been together for 30 years. While things have been a little sketchy for a while now, I had hoped, in my heart of hearts, that we could work our way back to each other. Apparently, that is not going to happen. He has found his soulmate and they are now very happy together. No discretion, no apology, he has just walked away without looking back. How nice for him. How nice for them. Ouch.
The ugly... I am left holding the bag with what's left of our combined lives in it. This house? Ugh. He gave up on our life together long ago. There are things needing to be done: decisions to be made, projects to be finished, things to be gone through, and financial matters to tend to. I have often "joked" that I was unsure of whether to be insulted or relieved that he had such low standards. My yard looks like an episode of Sanford and Sons. The shed? Good Lord. I have no words. My house is full of unfinished projects that need to be addressed. I have been cleaning and repairing for the past four months, and yet I haven't even scratched the surface. Baby steps. All the decisions can be overwhelming, but it will all get done. Or it won't. Either way, the house will be sold within the next year and a half (hopefully hanging on until Bubba graduates from high school).
So, there it is. Lots of changes and more to come. That "new normal"? Still a work in progress, but I will get there. I am determined.
